selfishness, which is moreover hypocritically enough labeled with the name of conscientiousness and the like. I now really feel how miserable it is to give yourself up as a servant of a foreign church; in addition to taking on their shame, you also invite a lot of suspicion and slander.

( 022 ) July 17th, 1838.
Today was a day of loss. Before we got up, two dogs had gone overboard. One had been deliberately thrown into the water because he was sick, but the other, a beautiful young animal, had slipped. They waited for him to swim for a long time, and there was considerable dissatisfaction that nothing had been done to save him. This was all the greater because people feared the same negligence in the event of a person falling overboard. Would such an unfortunate man, they asked, be left to his fate and nothing would be done to save him? After this process, the capitain ordered the boats, which were filled with all sorts of things, to be put in readiness so that they could be used immediately if necessary. At around 12 o'clock a new, albeit insignificant, accident occurred, namely the second mate's cap fell overboard from the mast boom. We've had cool, strong winds for a long time now, but unfortunately it's always in the opposite direction, so we were only making very little progress.

July 21st, 1838. Saturday .
Since we [were to] pass through the equator(35) tomorrow, on which occasion the sailors usually have an enjoyment called the Neptune Baptism(36), and since this could not happen the following day in order not to disturb the Sunday celebration ( 023 ), this celebration took place today. However, the usual brutalities did not take place, but the whole thing was arranged with a tar barrel, which the sailors set on fire and then threw overboard. Since this happened at 8 o'clock in the evening, at which time there is already deep darkness in this area of the globe, the floating fire, which was visible for half an hour, did quite well.

July 22nd, 1838. Sunday.
There was great inattention during the service, which made me so depressed that for a few moments I thought about never having it again, as far as I was involved, namely never reading a sermon again. In addition to the great inattention of those present at the back of the ship, there was also a very disturbing noise below, caused by those who were not attending the service.

July 24th, 1838.
I was asked by His Excellency the Governor to give his daughter, who was about 14 years old, lessons in the German language.

( 024 ) July 25th, 1838. Wednesday.
Miss Gawler took her first German lesson with me. Deceived by her physical size, I thought she was more mature than she really is and usually can be given her age. I found in her great childlike impartiality, even youthful flightiness.