October 1st, 1839.
The time is becoming incredibly long for me, a secret, anxious longing follows me wherever I walk and stand, and all the reassurance that I first felt when Bertha rewarded me with love in return is gone. The more we confess our ( 143 ) love to one another, the more my desire to see her and be around her grows. Until now I couldn't believe that one could be sick with love, but now I'm beginning to understand the feelings of such sick people. --

A bitter insult to Henry Calton came to my attention today from Mr. Moorhouse; The former had said to Preacher Quaife(152) that we were doing nothing, that we should live in the bush with the natives, and so on.

Before you, all-knowing Lord and God, I immediately admit myself guilty to such charges of negligence in my office; I may have devoted many an hour to my love, which belonged to my profession; For the sake of your goodness, may you forgive me and govern the circumstances in such a way that I may not be tempted to steal my office for long, but rather grant me my love, the delight of my eyes and the joy of my heart, my beloved Bertha, so that she may be around me, that the sorrow of my soul and the longing of my heart may be stilled.

Br. Teichelmann came back from Kanyanyapilla today.

October 2nd, 1839.
To my great chagrin, not a single native has returned to Piltawodlinga; there are a few on the opposite side of the city. --

Towards the evening I went to Klemzig and brought Mr. Fiedler the tenth part of Luther's works, in which he deals with engagements and so on ( 144 ). My beloved was busy washing; Whether she had caught a cold or something else was the cause, the poor girl had a severe toothache. During the evening hours I stayed home alone with her and Julius. When I gave her the framed portrait of her late father, she said with a warm handshake that I couldn't have given her greater joy. She then showed me some songs she had copied, the content of which was love; The last verse of one contained the groom's wish to hear his bride say a solemn "Yes" at the altar, and when I asked her if she agreed with the wish, she, although embarrassed, could not help but say yes. I had the opportunity to take away her knitting, which I only wanted to give back to her on the condition that she redeemed it. She initially said she had no deposit, but when I reminded her, she promised and I was given two hot kisses, the likes of which I have never enjoyed before.

October 3rd, 1839.
I wanted to speak to the Governor today about my house in Encounter Bay, but Hall's news that my house was only now being started, that I could do nothing to speed up the construction, and the like were sufficient. As a result of this news, the decision to visit Encounter Bay became even stronger and I ended up going to