Holy Communion yesterday, Pastor Kavel turned her away ( 168 ) because the Schlinke affair was not yet over. He had to write to my company at Dresden first, and until then he advised her to consider her relationship with me as non-existent; Of course, this would sadden us, but we would certainly see later that it was a good thing.

The effect of this priestly admonition on Bertha's faithful and conscientious heart was so great that she asked me to take back the ring mentioned yesterday and that she refused to give [me] a kiss of deep love and fidelity. Upset by Kavel's domineering behavior, I went to him to confront him about it.

He said: that his conscience would not allow him to act otherwise, since society was taking Father's place with me.

I replied: that even if that were the case, it was my duty to make it known to the company, as I intended to do, but not his.

He:I can write as much as I want, he won't stop me from doing that.

Me: That's right, but he doesn't need to write at all; or whether he suspected that I would carelessly embarrass him, assuming that society had to impose such a command?

Him: Not that.

Me: Then why he wanted to make society suspect me, as if I had committed a stupid prank here.

He: He would let me read his letter first,

Me: But what if society doesn't object, as I know in advance?

He: For the sake of Schlinke and the church in general, things must be taken so seriously with Fiedler and his daughter so that those who want to join in the future ( 169 ) do not want to be offended, or as he put it, so that Fiedler and his daughter do not stand in their way.

Me: But what does that have to do with society and what “right” I should have to suffer so that there is enough effect.

He: He thinks, I was innocent, of course, and he feels very sorry for me, but he couldn't help it.

Me: I see no connection between his community and my society, and if he had understood it clearly, he would be able to express it so clearly that I could understand it.